Confused

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Tonight didn't go as expected, I feel pain not because of what someone did but more about reminding me of my past. What I had to endure I don't wish on anyone even my worst enemy. I visibly was upset and hurt by a persons actions today, but they selfishly decided to not care and deal with the situation in a immature manner to say the least. I can say I don't tolerate bullies; I dealt with all kinds of bullies and there is no exception in this case. I'm sick of the lack of empathy people have. When did this world become so cruel? When did we stop caring for each other? Why don't we own up to our mistakes instead of accusing or putting others down to make ourselves  look/feel better? I never understood how putting someone else down could make you feel better or in control? Maybe because I don't lack empathy.....Is it a curse to care in this day in age? Maybe people never truly cared from the start. Maybe grown ups told us to many lies to "protect" us from the harsh reality of the world and when we finally see the truth emerge we become confused, shocked, hurt and so much more. I truly am confused and lost for words tonight.

Although I may be lost right now, doesn't mean I can't move forward as I usually do.

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