A Letter to my Therapist

 M,

I wanted to write a thank you letter for all that you have done for me thus this far. You listened to me rant, cry, swear, and become extremely passionate and spicy about various topics. We weren’t fully able to process my past traumas due to current events in my life and that’s okay. I learned that if you are able to process current trauma (s) with someone safe and talk about it, it’s less impactful in the future. It doesn't make it any easier, but it is helpful long term. I am sure you already know this. Anyways, I wanted to take this opportunity to say thank you and acknowledge the type of therapist I see. I know most of the work is on me and not you. However, like I said, you were and are a safe person and that goes miles. Maybe about two but that’s about it. JK.

M, you have and will continue to do amazing things for so many! Don’t let it get to your head! Always stay humble, curious, compassionate, and flexible with a hint of spicy. Like Jalapeno level spicy. Unless it comes to Lindsey. Yes, I am aware that I should let it go but I am choosing not to. Anyways, this isn’t about my beef with her.

Here are some key qualities that you possess; you are genuine, accepting, self-aware, curious, insightful, able to challenge perceptions in a safe and respectful way, flexible and humble. All these qualities build trust, connection and confidence in the ability to be vulnerable. I hope these are qualities you see in yourself. Again, thank you for all that you believe in, value and see in the work you do.

About a month ago before the snow started to bless it’s unfortunate presents; I went for a walk with my dog. As I went for this walk, I was thinking about a quote that popped into my scattered brain. I don’t know if I ever heard of it before, but it was “the unimaginable can be imagined we just don’t know it yet.” The reason it came to mind is because I was thinking about all the possibilities in life. There are so many things that we haven’t discovered or understood. When I close my eyes, I try to imagine the things that I think are unobtainable. I oddly find comfort in that. I think it’s because it gives me hope that we are more than what we think we are. Maybe I am just a dreamer or one crazy woman haha. Depending on who you talk to I am all the above! But if you asked me what I think.  I would say “I am a dreamer.”

Well, I suppose that is all for this moment.

Happy holidays and see you on the flip side.