Can You See Me Now?

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I am unique. So, I was told.
I am different. So, I was told.
I am brave. So, I was told.
I am beautiful. So, I was told.
I am creative. So, I was told.
I am intelligent. So, I was told.
I am funny. So, I was told.
I am a fighter. So, I was told.

I cry nearly every day. So, here I am.
I feel deeply. So, here I am.
I have barriers to tall to jump. So, here I am.
I think about everything. So, here I am.
I have deep wounds that won't close. So, here I am.
I feel like a monster. So, here I am.
I joke to mask the pain. So, here I am.
I lose sight and energy for hope. So, here I am.

Can you see me now? Can you see that my pain is what you admire? 
 

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