Realizing They Never Feared Losing You

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Someone posted this saying in a group that I follow.

“The deepest pain is not losing someone, it’s realizing they never feared losing you.”

This resonated with me deeply and profoundly. To me it speaks to people you thought loved and supported you while they have lacked the ability to see “value” or “worth” in who you are. Causing them to not fear losing you because they didn’t see your worth or value in the first place. Whether this applies to family, friends, romance, or otherwise.

I want to preface that rejection isn’t about your actual value or worth but rather the inability to see who you are in all your complexities.

I did post this on my social media but modified it to "protect" the ones that may contest to what I am speaking to. Funny, but in my past some of my foster parents encouraged me to write a book about my experiences. To be completely honest they wouldn't like half the things I have to say just as much as my actual family. People like to live blissfully unaware or ignorant to someone else's life experiences/perspective as long as it doesn't "expose" them in any capacity. 

Here I am able to express myself without all the noise. The ability to be authentically me even if that looks dimmer, chaotic, or poetic depending on the day and circumstances. I like to think that I have the ability to see my humanity in all it's god damn glory even if others don't.

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