Learning How To Play Chess

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Learning how to play chess.

A smile slowly creeps up.

A possible opportunity.

Wait. Wrong move.

My turn comes up again. I take a pawn.

Critical thinking is necessary.

Desperation is starting to dissipate.

There is hope.

Slowly gaining control.

Now, I am cornered with one piece left.

What’s my move?

Keep performing a dance I can’t dance?

I chose to surrender with dignity and try again.

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